Useless words of Expression
I keep telling myself relapse and everything will be alright that moment will be forever ,forever in my eyes in reality 45 minutes tops. everything around me will stop and i will find myself lost again. and right now i have the chance to go back to a place i hate but i was happy? why am i doing this i don’t know i honestly don’t know..
ALL this right now is not worth it.. i dont understand what happiness is and i dont understand what love really is. so why am i trying to be a better person when being a better person is useless.
5months of wondering and what have i found happiness ?? instated words of wisdom.. will they help me i don’t know. it just makes me understand that everything in life is never permanent its temporary what you have now will be gone tomorrow and we have to live with it even if we dislike it. keep moving forward.
Right now i just feel that everything around me is moving and im just stuck in this place and i dont want to do anything. im not mad or am i sad. expression is nil at this very moment. hmmm a moment in silence with time and this moment is mine.